The weekend is almost done. I head to bed in about an hour. Where did it all get to? I didn’t get to be with Red as much as I wanted to or needed to.
you know I never realized until Red and I were working this damn opposite shift insanity, that I love and need her more, much more than I ever imagined…
I feel like a bachelor living with a roommate that you hardly ever see.
I never realized how many holes, flaws and chinks in my makeup that Red fills, patches or strengthens up on a daily basis for me. Not to be so crass as to steal a quote from a certain Dr. Evil, But, “She completes me”. In every microscopic part of me that fails on a daily basis. She is there to help me through.
But now it is not so.. We see each other for perhaps 6-8 hours over the course of our so called weekends. I get up at 4AM and have to be at work by 6AM. I get off at 4Pm and home by 4:30PM if I am lucky…
Red is usually in bed by 2:30 – 3:00PM each day. Asleep by the time I get home from work. She rarely wakes up fully but more often then not I will sneak into the room and give her a kiss on whatever flesh is poking gout of the top of the sheet.
Red usually gets up about 9:00 – 9:30PM. About an hour to an hour and a half after I have already gone to bed. I usually try to be in bed by 8PM. I need to get that little bit of Red snuggling time before I pass out and fall asleep.
Red has to be at work by 11PM and does not usually get home before 7:30 – 8:00AM. I usually leave the house by 5:15AM to be at work by 6AM. We do not see each other in the morning either.
And then Red has school most days on top of all that. So as you can see our time together is so very limited. We do not get to recharge each other as we need to, It is so hard to try to explain to those who do not share the bond that Red and I share.
My very soul screams for her touch, smell, and voice.
I am a very lost and lonely traveler on this road. I am tired of traveling alone. But you have to continue. It is the only way to survive in this time of our lives.
One day, soon I hope.. Red and I will reunite on this road to continue our travels together…
The Best is Yet to Come.
Dragon
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